I tried to do good in my life, really I tried but the more I tried the more worse I become. Never thought I would be there. Well, a lot of people would say some people went through it to but the survived...became better!
True! But not everyone got the same will-power, that's why we are so different and are required to balance one another out.
That's why we are beings, we need one another because we can't do it alone!
So how did I end up here and why did I end up here?
Firstly, this is not an excuse, however, I will ask you not to please judge me until you walked a mile in my shoes.
My dignity, integrity, dreams and aspirations were all striped from me within a twinke of an eye. Yet my assailants didn't stop, no one to call to for help, because even the so called "help" are good friends with my assailant. My assailant didn't even look back to see if I lived or died, instead my assailant is having fun, partying and looting at my predicament.
My assailant is someone I look up to, love and respect, trust and obey! Will freely give up my life if asked to because my assailant is part of me and I, of my assailant!
But my assailant betrayed my trust, love and respect...my assailant raped me!
So I am asking again, why do you rape me! Your own flesh and blood! Your very own, why do you keep raping me? Taking everything that make me human...degrading me to an animal!
No, I take that back, not animal. Because even animals show compassion to their own kind. You degrade me to what is less than an animal.
You are suppose to be my protector, my defender and my warrior but nay, you are the predator, the taker and destroyer. A killer of dreams, a changer of destinies, and mower of lives.
Why oh why, do you not see what you are doing to me when you rape me over and over and over again? Every time, I think it is over, and begin to pick up the pieces of a life that is left, then you come back charging at me once again and the latter worse than the former. Why oh why?
Why do you keep raping me, my dear country? All I want is to live and let's live! Love you with all my heart and might. Be a doctor or an engineer or even a teacher. I just want to have a right to good living even if I have to pay for it, a right to a good school, a good meal and a good warm bed. And as I said, I am even willing to pay for it because I am ready to work to get the money.
You have taken away every bit of patriotism in me, cos you have taught me never to trust in you. Every day I wake to a self esteem that is lower than the low! I try to run to other countries, alas, I run in vain because the ones that ain't your allies, are so mean/atrocious that even their goodness looks a lot appealing than yours.
So again I ask, why do you rape me, my country!
I am not asking for much, all I am asking for is my right to live, my right to dignity, a right to integrity, a right to love, a right to hope, a right to much more BUT most of all a right to be HUMAN!
Stop, please stop, because I can take this no more!
Don't forget that the same letters in RAPE are contain in REAP. Need I say more!
To everyone who have been raped emotionally, physically, intellectually, and mentally...this is to you!
You are not alone!
True and real
Real Gentlehawk
