CHASING YOUR DREAMS!

When the world turns its back, You don't give up!

Don't worry, I ain't Pumba, who turns its back. Lol 😄😄😄

Hey guys,

You see, lately I have been doing a lot of things that I love. Just picked up gardening too. It is very relaxing and fulfilling. The beauty that comes from ones labour is unfathomable. 

The thing is I wanted a dog but with all I have going on, I was advised against it. At least not for now. So anyway, this gardening stuff has been so helpful. Started about 6 months ago with a friend of mine who also has a garden. In fact she is a horticulturist. She's been doing it for a long time, so playfully I call her my consultant.

Anyway, my little garden is doing pretty well for a beginner, but after a while I noticed a specific plant withering. Didn't know why because I thought I was giving it the same attention I was giving others. The rest were blooming beautifully, just not this particular one.

Strangely , it is my favorite and therefore was heart broken. My friend, who is also my consultant told me to do a lot of things and if they don't work , I might have to uproot and replant that same specie again.Oh how it broke my heart, when she said that.

Anyway, to cut the long story short, I ended up doing exactly what I feared and that was uproot my favorite plant. But I am someone who doesn't give up easily on anything. Failure drives me nuts and so doing I keep trying and trying and trying again. I'm trying to figure out why I do that, still trying to....

I couldn't just let go of the plant and that, I told my consultant. Thinking I was just being stupid and stubborn, she let me be.

So I did what I know how to do best, NEVER GIVING UP, even when all hope look lost. I refuse to accept that the plant was totally dead. I decided to transfer it into a small pot, ensuring that all dead parts were removed. What I had left was a very tiny brownish looking plant. Throughout, I didn't give in to doubt but hoped that something miraculous would happen. And it did. 

Few days later, I noticed a little stem finding its way out from the soil, a new life had just started. The tiny brownish plant I had re-planted was beginning to look healthy. 

And till this very day,  that plant is the most beautiful plant in my garden, even my friend is surprised and jealous.

Moral of this story: Giving up isn't an option. Things may not be going the way you want doesn't mean it won't. Give it time. May all you need is to reorganize the way you are doing things. And starting over, doesn't mean you failed or you are a failure...NOPE!  On the contrary, it simply means you are smart and strong enough to know better.

Conviction goes a long way in chasing your dreams. You have to have personal conviction in order to chase your dreams, cos baby, you will meet people who will talk you down, people whom you love saying that you are crazy wasting your time chasing that dream. You've got to believe it, to want it! Even the universe won't have a choice than to fail in line to help you achieve your dream. 

Keeping at it set you apart from the rest! 

Trust me, you can do anything if you first believe. 

So get up and stay up, until your dreams become reality! The world is waiting.

Yours truly

Your gal, Real Gentlehawk! 

ON THE FINAL NOTE - HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Driving home the other day, I stopped for gas at the gas station which was a little off my route but had to get the gas for my car for next day journey. Anyway, after I getting the gas I was torn between taking a very long route (which wasn't even an option because it meant I will have to drive through the terrible traffic I just drove through) or look for an alternative route. Then I remember there was indeed an alternative route that could lead me to my destination, so I decided to trace the road leading there.

However, may be it was because I was simply eager to get home or maybe I was just damn tired or maybe I didn't even know the route so well enough, that I wasn't able to just figure out this specific turn point which will lead me to my destination. So after driving for a while, I revised the car and faced the very terrible traffic I was running away from. 

Having learnt my lessons the night before, I decided to acquaint myself with this alternative road just in case I got myself in a similar situation once again. But as I drove through the very road, I discovered that if only I had just kept going a little farther, the turning point I search for was about 200m ahead. 

So I began to laugh at myself and then it hit me...

How many times have we given up on things, people and situation not knowing that the answer is just 200m ahead of us? How many times have we gone through painful issues thinking it just the end of the world, throwing in the towel and saying we can't do or handle it anymore but not knowing that our solution, our testimony, our victory, our healing, our breakthrough, our change, our upliftment is just 200meters ahead of us? 

If only we just hold on a little longer, persevere just a little more and our blessings will be ours.

2014 has been an amazing year for a lot of people I know and for some like me, well, we are hoping 2015 will be a better year.

But regardless, we all should be grateful for everything for everything we've been through and has gone through us - good, bad and ugly, because if it didn't kill you in 2014 then we have an opportunity to improve and make the most of our lives.

So on this final note, out of 2014 into 2015, will like to leave you with some thoughts.

Things may not seem to look the way you wish or hoped for it to be in 2014, but 2015, is another opportunity to fight for and be persistent in what you want for your life. Do all you can to stand, just for the fact that you are even alive to see 2015 is a testimony that you are already victorious and you can do anything. 

Stand tall and stand high. Your now definitely don't define your future.

Giving up isn't an option and so you should never ever consider it. 

If people don't believe in you, believe in yourself because with time those that really do matter will always come around. 

2015 is a year of letting go of everything that will make you less of yourself.  Be it any relationship, environment, thoughts, emotions, etc. just let it go...fight for YOU, YOUR DREAM, YOUR DESTINY and LIFE! 

Remember just ahead you is your testimony.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL!

 

RAPE BY MY COUNTRY

If I may please have your attention, I promise not to take much of your precious time as the piece will change your perception of me!

I tried to do good in my life, really I tried but the more I tried the more worse I become. Never thought I would be there. Well, a lot of people would say some people went through it to but the survived...became better! 

True! But not everyone got the same will-power, that's why we are so different and are required to balance one another out.

That's why we are beings, we need one another because we can't do it alone!

So how did I end up here and why did I end up here? 

Firstly, this is not an excuse, however, I will ask you not to please judge me until you walked a mile in my shoes. 

My dignity, integrity, dreams and aspirations were all striped from me within a twinke of an eye. Yet my assailants didn't stop, no one to call to for help, because even the so called "help" are good friends with my assailant. My assailant didn't even look back to see if I lived or died, instead my assailant is having fun, partying and looting at my predicament.

My assailant is someone I look up to, love and respect, trust and obey! Will freely give up my life if asked to because my assailant is part of me and I, of my assailant!

But my assailant betrayed my trust, love and respect...my assailant raped me! 

Though I fought back, really I did but it was all in vain because my assailant is bigger and stronger. And when I asked why? My assailant only laughed!

So I am asking again, why do you rape me! Your own flesh and blood! Your very own, why do you keep raping me? Taking everything that make me human...degrading me to an animal! 

No, I take that back, not animal. Because even animals show compassion to their own kind. You degrade me to what is less than an animal.

You are suppose to be my protector, my defender and my warrior but nay, you are the predator, the taker and destroyer. A killer of dreams, a changer of destinies, and mower of lives.

Why oh why, do you not see what you are doing to me when you rape me over and over and over again? Every time, I think it is over, and begin to pick up the pieces of a life that is left, then you come back charging at me once again and the latter worse than the former. Why oh why?

Why do you keep raping me, my dear country? All I want is to live and let's live! Love you with all my heart and might. Be a doctor or an engineer or even a teacher. I just want to have a right to good living even if I have to pay for it, a right to a good school, a good meal and a good warm bed. And as I said, I am even willing to pay for it because I am ready to work to get the money. 

You have taken away every bit of patriotism in me, cos you have taught me never to trust in you. Every day I wake to a self esteem that is lower than the low! I try to run to other countries, alas, I run in vain because the ones that ain't your allies, are so mean/atrocious that even their goodness looks a lot appealing than yours.

So again I ask, why do you rape me, my country! 

I am not asking for much, all I am asking for is my right to live, my right to dignity, a right to integrity, a right to love, a right to hope, a right to much more BUT most of all a right to be HUMAN! 

Stop, please stop, because I can take this no more!

Don't forget that the same letters in RAPE are contain in REAP. Need I say more!

To everyone who have been raped emotionally, physically, intellectually, and mentally...this is to you!

You are not alone!

True and real

Real Gentlehawk